quote from the dream document on my phone, as i cannot remember any part of this dream: "freeze drying and eating people??" (6/10/25)
one of my neighbors was in my home, and she wanted to jump up and down on my bed in her underwear with me. i did not want that at all, so i must have asked her to leave. i then checked every closet space in my apartment, but i'm not sure now what i was looking for. there were two more closets than there should be, and inside these i could see the inner structures of the building. that scared me, as i felt like i was going to fall into it and get hurt if i kept looking. i was still glad to have two empty closets to put things in though, and was thinking about what i was going to store in them. a guy i did not know but had seen around the neighborhood, had started texting me in order to ask me out. i interpreted that as a threat. i had also been told that my nature sciences teacher was trying to get a hold of me with the same intention. that made me suspicious, as i was not a student and thus did not have any teachers. this also seemed like a threat to me. people had started to show up at my door, and i knew they wanted to hurt me. my ex was in my home when a guy showed up with a trailer containing household items, like plastic buckets and flower pots. i knew that the objects themselves, as well as the guy could hurt us, so i began destroying the items. this was difficult. they did not react to the impact in the way they should have, but eventually i did manage to break them. i also stabbed the man with a box cutter. eventually i started to stab every person who came to my door with it, as i knew they were there to harm me. (30/9/25)
i spotted a spider under one of the cushions on my couch. the spider, in turn, spotted another spider, walking across the floor. it immediately set off towards it in order to fight it. the other spider managed to take a few of its legs off. the cat i used to own then tried to eat the spiders, while they were still fighting. i suppose the fight was so intense that the cat couldn't get any of the spiders still enough to eat them, because after somehow being pushed back onto his hind legs by the sheer force of the spider brawl, he gave up. (30/9/25)
i visited some kind of farm where a family lived. the things in their house, water, electricity and such, had stopped working, and they could not seem to get it fixed. i believe they were being discriminated against due to them being poor. the family members begun to die one by one. i am not sure if i was the cause or not, as i was there to see it each time, but cannot figure out a cause in hindsight. either way, this caused me distress. one of the family members died in their bed, and i had to cover their bloody and freshly dead body with blankets as well as my own body, to prevent their mother or grandmother from having to see it. she had entered the room, and i wante to spare her the sight. (29/9/25)
i had purchased groceries, but was forced into a peculiar kind of volleyball game. the court was extremely long, like it had replicated itself several times, almost like the classic snake game, with identical segments being added on, with many teams playing the same game. between every team there was a net, not high up like it should be when playing volleyball, but instead in the position it would be when playing tennis. each team was facing the middle of this huge court, and i was in one of the two teams closest to the absolute middle net. this played out in the gym at the school i spent grades four-nine at, and i believe i was playing with and against students aged twelve or thirteen. a ball was not used, but instead my groceries i had bought prior. i was told to serve in order to start the match, and i had to try to serve using a container of tofu. i did not do it properly, as i was told to aim for the smallest team. not in term of the least amount of people, but the team in which the members were the shortest in height. it was told to me in a way that made me understand that i was to do it in a violent manner, so i tried again, serving another package of tofu into the face of a short muslim girl with glasses, and the package burst in her face. i felt bad about it. (28/9/25)
the woman who now has my cat wanted to sleep on my couch. i did not want her to do that. (9/8/25)
i had to have sex with a man i know. i did not want to, but somehow i knew it was going to happen anyway. i was trying to distract him in order to stretch out the time, and put it off for just a little bit longer. i woke up before it happened, i always do, even when i want it. (date unknown)
my childhood friend had single-handedly begun an operation where she was trying to make people move out of the apartment area in which i live. she would ask them strange questions, offer them off-putting snacks in the stairwell, and steal their packages from the post van, only to deliver them to their doors herself. she was successful, people started moving. she encouraged me to try my hand with it as well, so i decided to start with a group of girls who were selling snacks outside. my friend had told me that i should try eating frozen nectarine, and i was doing so when i walked up to them. they asked why i didn't just buy it from them, claiming to sell it. i asked to see for myself, but they started showing me only different kinds of frozen melon pieces. i told them that those were in fact melons, and this seemed to make them very insecure. my friend ended up joining in, and she said something that made me laugh so hard i woke up. (10/8/25)
a woman wanted to kill me. i'm not sure exactly why. it was either because i had a car that she wanted, or she had one that i wanted, and she didn't like how i was going around looking at it. (9/8/25)
my abusive ex wanted me to buy pants for him. sand or beige colored work pants i guess they were. he was complaining to me that he could never find the right size, waist size 30, and he would do something bad to me if i did not manage to get him a pair of the desired variety. the store was a mess, it was huge and nothing was sorted by size. i found many pairs of pants that at first glance seemed to fit every criteria, but something was always wrong. the store also sold ugly, inconvenient, and just strange looking garments. my mother was there with me. there was something she wanted me to do, but i was unable to find out what it was, or complete my original objective. (7/8/25)
a man appeared in my apartment with the intention to rape and kill me. beat me to death i think it was. i was trying to sleep when i heard him say something, and then i saw him standing in a corner in the hallway. i barely escaped but made it out alive. it was my actual apartment, stairwell and outside area. i tried calling the janitor, same janitor as in real life, to ask him to change my locks. i was unable to get in touch with him. (7/8/25)
i was going to have relations with a very tall british man, who had a wife and two children. he slid it between my thighs from behind, the way they used to do it in france if i'm not mistaken, it was six inches long and i was very into it. we had to stop before we could go further, because his family needed to use the room we were in. his daughters started drawing and doing homework at the table. the room resembled the bedroom i had in my family home. i knew that i lived there. (25/7/25)
my cats were alive and with me at a funeral home in stockholm. i wanted to get a piercing, and kill myself. (19/9/24)
my phone wouldn't charge using my regular charger, and would glitch out when i attempted to use it. this made me very anxious, as i needed a functional phone for a trip i was going on in a few days. i set out to find a new usb-c cable. looked all over my home, and the homes of other people. i ended up at a restaurant full of people. there was a cat there. everyone else knew the cat, and told me stories about his life. apparently he had been some sort of criminal, and was a former drug addict. this was a normal-sized cat, unable to speak human languages. i was told about how the cat used to buy shoes, "nike conferences" to be exact, in purple cheetah print, and snort cocaine off of them. i happened to be wearing purple cheetah print pants at the tine, and the cat went up to where i was sitting, stood up on his back paws, rested his front paws on my leg and pretended to snort cocaine off of my pants. everyone in the restaurant went crazy for it. they thought it was funny as hell. it was. (9/6/24)
i had a dog that had to be put down, and the dog was somehow the last reminder i had of someone who had died. i was horribly sad and let the dog cuddle with me in my bed. also went to a club and saw bands, spoke to the members. (date unknown)