here you will find my interpretations and reflections on songs. the people around me are not interested in this, and quite frankly, it sometimes embarrasses me the way i feel about music and what it makes me think about. so i will place that right here. in alphabetical order, by artist. if there are several songs from the same artist, it will be sorted by date. if there are several songs from the same release, they will appear in tracklist order. my feelings about these songs may very well be different from that which was intended by the artist. these are only my emotions.
i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you
i love you there was a point where everything i love you bent down
and it took something from me i love you
something i can't quite explain i love you
and i always wondered if it would come back i love you
and love me the way it said it was supposed to i love you
but maybe it lied i love you
maybe it was all a lie i love you
i've tried so hard i love you to explain in words what it meant to me i love you
how it felt to me i love you
but maybe it's not meant to be explained i love you
maybe it's not meant to be marked down in words i love you
or scrawled out on a piece of paper i love you
until then i love you i guess i'll just i love you lie here and wait
wait for it to come back i love you
wait for it to love me again i love you
do you think you know i love you how to give up?
do you think i love you what it means to be loved? i love you
you don't i love you and you never will
but i can tell you i love you right now i love you
it's beautiful i love you
it is such a precious thing to be loved i love you
such a i love you precious, magnificent thing to be loved
such a wondrous and painful thing to be loved
when you were young, you said you wished that someone loved you
i do i do i do i do i do i do i do i do i do i do i do
do you think you understand what it means to be loved?
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this track spans 13 minutes and 36 seconds. it is quite a repetetive listen, but that is just one of the things i appreciate about it. it captures, in my opinion, the pain of everyday life when you are unable to find stability in your relationship. when you have been told by that person that they will love you in a way that is sweet and pure and makes you feel good, but you are forced to watch the distance between you grow. you yourself have not moved at all. you will wait for them forever, if that is what it takes. it hurts so bad, but you can't be without it either. you don't know how to detach yourself from it, so you give everything else up instead. nothing else matters anyway. other people live their lives in a way that you cannot, so you have convinced yourself that they have never felt what you have felt. what it was like when you felt loved. had they felt that even once, they would not be able to function like they do. the indescribable sensation. you just want it back. you want to never stop feeling it. others say love is not supposed to hurt the way you say it does. they have never felt it. they are spared from it and missing out simultaneously. they cannot understand why you are unable to create a life for yourself where other things matter. the person you love, wished to be loved. and you do. i do. i do. i do. but they don't understand it either, what you mean when you say you love them. had they felt it the way you feel it, you would live and die together, doing nothing at all. just being near each other. you want them to know that you love them, and to understand what they mean to you, but they are unable to grasp it, and you can't explain. there are no words for it. only i love you. for them it may lose meaning, but for you it never does. when hearing or reading a word very often in a short amount of time, it stops feeling real. it stops having meaning, it is reduced to the letters of which it consists. but not love. not for you. saying it will never be routine. you say it because you mean it each time, and you have to say it because you feel it so intensely. i feel it and i want you to know it. nothing else has any meaning. understand it and know that i mean it. everything could be taken from me, but i will still make sure to tell you. on my deathbed i will repeat it until my soul leaves my body. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. i love you. (18/5/26)